(Reblogged from March 27, 2008)
Sometimes I just feel like giving it all up. Maybe this only happens to me, but it feels like when I grow closer to God, I just feel more drained. Suddenly all kinds of distractions come up as if something or someone does not want me to be with God. It’s at these times that doubts are whispered into my ears, lies. And sometimes I think it is just me. There are moments when I just wish God would leave me alone and let me live a life of ease where I wasn’t called to a purpose. It is so exhausting. That’s how the enemy does it. He wrestles with me. There is definitely a battle going on in my heart and it leaves me tired, leaves me wanting out. But if I get out he wins, the enemy will be victorious.
Lord, please fight this battle with me. Bring victory for your kingdom. Amen.