I just started reading Pope Francis’ apostolic exhortation Evangelii Gaudium and it is amazing and it is refreshing some of my pre-Conversion love for evangelization which I gained on Summer Project 2008. The Pope reminds me of a conversation that I had with God late one night while I sat on Mission Bay looking at the lights of the bridge twinkling on the water. I made a promise to do full-time mission work that night, a promise that I have largely attempted to ignore since becoming Catholic and since my attempt at seminary. I told myself that the promise didn’t count since I was a Protestant and did not have a strong grasp on doctrinal reality. But perhaps none of that matters. The Blessed Mother did not have full knowledge of what she would experience when she gave her fiat but that did not diminish the promise or release her from its obligation.
Could God be bringing a great number of things together in my life right now in this moment that are leading me back to this promise in order to launch me into the future? That is what I need to figure out, and I think that Evangelii Gaudium is key to discerning this part of my life.