Lately I have begun feeling disconnected and get ticked off by the littlest things. I get testy, I get whiny, I throw fits and I become the man I once was and no longer want to be. I felt the same way before coming to project and now that I am going to be leaving this intense Christian fellowship and experience it is all the Devil can do to make me feel isolated from God. I did not feel connected to God at all during worship and I acted like a child earlier with my friend over something that didn’t matter. I knew it, and I could feel the roots tightening around me, but I knew not how to overcome them. I mean, I guess I knew, but I didn’t do anything, I couldn’t do anything, I was frozen in fear. Why? Don’t ask me. All I know is that this is going to be so much harder than I anticipated. It is going to take a lot of prayer, a lot of time in the Word and a lot of time being open and dialoging with other Christians about what is going on in my heart.