Tonight we had men’s time back at the project. The topic was sexual purity. I’ve had many talks about sexual purity before, but this one was different. I felt more convicted. I have been a slave to immorality and a depraved mind for the longest time, but for some reason it just hit me today and I felt so bad. We had to define what sexual immorality was and we arrived at the conclusion that it is any sexual activity that occurs outside of a committed marital relationship between a man and woman. We also had to define sexual activity and came to the conclusion that even kissing is sexual. Why? Imagine that you are married and I kiss your wife. Would you be pretty upset about it? Yeah, thought so. Anyway, sexual immorality includes a wide variety of things.
We went over scripture from 1 Thessalonians 4 that discussed the issue and it was a big help. The thing that hit the hardest, though, was near the end when all the girls, unexpected to us, came into the room and stood at the front. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t look any of them in the face. Then there was a girl at the end of each row, which I was on the end of mine, and she handed the guy a rose. The guy was to take a petal or two or three from the rose and passed it down the row. It just hit me hard about how my sexually immoral actions affect both her and me. I fully realized that my immorality goes far beyond pornography and lust, but goes deep into flirtation, leading girls on, putting myself into tempting situations by watching movies or tv late at night alone with a girl on my bed/sofa, or going for a midnight walk on campus to the babbling brook.
On Thursday morning, the guys are leaving for an overnight trip to Tijuana. We are going to be asked to make a commitment to sexual purity until marriage and to faithfulness in marriage. I am eager to make that promise. I know that it is going to be hard to honor it sometimes, but it worth it. When I finally get married, I want to be a whole rose for my wife, not one that has been trampled on and had its petals torn off. I have to remember that that God has promised me something greater than any instantly gratifying sinful lust could bring for me.