The Lord is really working in my heart and I am finding it harder and harder to justify some of my actions. Half of us went to Tiajuana, Mexico today to help out at an orphanage. I have never been to Mexico and so the culture shock was off the scales. I wasn’t expecting the barrage of vendors harassing me to get me into their shops. I was afraid the whole time that I was going to get pickpocketed as well. But the orphanage was the best part of the day. We got to play with the kids and present a vacation Bible school where they learned about Daniel. The director of the orphanage told us about the kids. Many of them came from single mothers engaged in prostitution, many had been raped, many have seen their own family members murdered, many have been rented out in the sex industry for drugs, many of them have to survive by stealing, and many of them have lived on the streets for a long time.
These children were precious and I commend the efforts of the orphanage in raising these children to be raised up as children of God. When it was time to leave I did not want to leave behind the little kid I was playing with. His name was Alberto and he was 10 years old. We couldn’t really communicate beyond that, but we just rode our bikes together in the courtyard for awhile. I wanted to take him with me when I left, but obviously I couldn’t.
When we got back tonight, I sat on the beach after dark and thought about how awful Tiajuana gets at night and I thought about those children who are NOT in the orphanage right now and the things that are happening to them, things that as a grown man I could not handle physically or emotionally. And I think about the darkness that is clouding over that city and I actually started to cry a little bit thinking about them. God is definitely laying it on my heart to be more conscious of the needs and desperations of others and to focus less and less on myself. I am going to be praying for those children everyday and I hope that you will join me.